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Hi there, I'm wondering if anyone has been in a similar situation to me. I have a five year old and six month old delivered by emergency c section. I'm in a happy relationship but found out I'm pregnant again(6-7 weeks). Initially we were keeping the baby but I then felt my body hadn't had enough time to heal itself and felt that it wouldn't be fair to my children. After much upset I have booked the first appointment for termination on Tuesday but this doesn't feel right either!! Does anybody have any thoughts-thank you x x
Hi thanks for you reply. My partner is very typical and said he supports whatever I decide although he said he is worried about the pregnancy and says it would make more sense to wait another year or so. I agree with his logic but can't turn off my feelings either. If I go through with the abortion I want it to be sooner rather than later, as the longer the pregnancy continues the more it's developing and I don't agree with later terminations (sorry if that offends anybody). Doc said not ideal but should be ok but there is a risk of rupture of the scar tissue. He also said vbac not possible so would need another c section. This upset me as my baby would only be 15 months old and I won't be able to care for her, I think this upsets me the most x
Yes, I totally see where you are coming from.
If you decide to go ahead with the pregnancy then you WILL manage.....and it would then be a really good idea to find a double 100% proof contraceptive just to give your body the break it will need.
However, do not feel guilty if you decide to terminate, you have to think of the whole family.
Have you been offered any counselling re this? There is specialist phone help avaialble by clicking here and here
Hi
As Louise says, you do need to think of all of you.
Loads of hugs.
Thanks for taking the time to comment, I'll give them a ring x
Hi Lindsay, welcome along. I would just like to point out something that you said. You have a 15 month old, and you feel you wouldn't be able to look after that child after a c section. I had my son by c section, and was at the time a carer for my mum. After having my son, I came home, and not only looked after him, but also cared for my mum. Just wanted to say that it can be done, and if you have the support of a partner, even better. Good luck with whatever decision you make.
Hi Lindsay0797
I totally sympathise with your situation i too had this dilemma, i had three children under 4, the youngest was 6 months when i found out that i was pregnant again, their father was set against me having a termination, i already had postnatal depression and was strugggle with the children and felt i would not be able to cope with another baby.
I did not know what to do for the best, and had the pressure from kids father not to terminate. Eventually i did go to my doctor who sent me for a scan to find out my dates and so they could see what options there were and how long i had to make a decision.
I had the scan which is when they found that the foetus was eleven weeks, what they also could not find was a heart beat, i had what they call a retained miscarriage and had to have surgery.
This left me feeling really numb and gulity and i did not say anything to anyone, i went on to have another child and years later i had counselling for depression and this episode of my life came out.
I had not realised that i had been holding in the grief and gulit, because i felt that it was my fault, i was too stressed or maybe i had not looked after myself enough all those what if's. Finally i was able to grieve and move on.
It is hard work looking after several young children, i have to say i found the younger years easier than the olders years, but thats just my experience. I am not sure how much help my story is to you as it ended differently, only i wanted to offer some support.
You are really lucky that you have a supportive partner, i hope that you contact the links that Louise gave you so that you can get some more support to help you make the decision that is right for you.
Will be thinking of you, will you keep us posted on what you decide?
Hi
I am so sorry to hear your story, until I did this post I did not realise how many people have been in similar situations and the heartache we all feel towards our children. I'm going to my appointment next week and decide from there, it's an awful choice to make for any woman. Thank you
My very best wishes.
Hi Lindsay0797
Did you manage to get to speak to anyone? How are you feeling?
IF YOUR UNSURE DONT DO IT!
All you need to think about is "will I regret it" if yes then don't do it. If no then follow your decision. I think you need to follow your heart instead of your head on this one hun because if you go ahead with it you can't turn back the hands of time as you know.
I think I know what your decision will be.
Good luck hun x
Hi Lindsay0797
Hope you have had a good Christmas and New Year 
How did your appointment go and have you made a decision? how are you?
hiya lindsay
no-one can truly advise you on what to do about this situation, not even the father of the baby has the right to put pressure on you either way. be realistic about your home life, because ultimately we are usually left holding the babys.. i myslef have had an abortion and three miscarriages, i grieve the abortion more!.. but saying that it was still the right decision..(personally).. i'm of the believe that that child will come back to you, if not now then years later when your ready for another baby.. dont beat yourself up lindsay.x
Hello Lindsay70797
This is a difficult situation for you to be in....ideally doctors say that women should aim to have a gap of nine monthgs before they conceive again, and of course you have had the Caesarian to recover from. What does your partner think? What does the doctor say? is it possible to delay the appointment for a couple of weeks or do you think this would be prolonging the agony? Sorry...lots of questions