Not caring about things is a major symptom of depression. I know you said you did not go to your last doctor's appointment, did you make another one?
It feels very hard to you at the moment but the only person that can change things is you.. and if you DON'T change anything then effectively that means you are choosing to remain the same. That feels hardest of all, I know, and sympathise very much. Maybe making the doctor's appointment is the first little step to take?
Hi there well it been a few rough days,knew it would be and cracked up Weds as I expected as it was ex birthday,have facebooked my dilemma with my son and getting it shared as much as I can,laptop still not sorted am very annoyed,I mamaged to sort my money out a bit more and got some certificates from my course today for completion of first maths level so cheered me up as I need to be proud of something
It's good that you passed your Maths...a big achievement in view of everything that is going on 
and glad you are now seeing some money progress.
I am not sure what you mean about putting about your son on FB, I mean not sure what the purpose is, are you thinling that publicity will help you find your son or help get him back?
Very annoying re laptop, I agree, we run so much of our lives online now that it is difficult without.
Yes put on facebook to help me find my son,I had day off course today and planned to do so much but have needed to sleep,got up at 2.30pm n just fancied laying watching tv,yes the laptop very angry as they had to wipe all docs n pics n they want a Usb from me but £50!!,I think I am going to have to lose it all as I not have the money but has last photos of my boy and important docs to ss,i am fighting hard not to drink but it still at least 4/5 days a week,today is a down day I am hurting
Is that through the tracing service you mentioned lorraine? is the £50 for the usb you can buy those for about £5?
Sorry today is a down day, have you been back to the doctors?
Hi Sally well have found a usb argos £15,there is no tracing service just i have friends in Cornwall which I think is where my son is looking out for me.My friends are also going to pay for MATCH subscription for me next week but I am so sad as should have been putting an advert calender up today for my son(my daughter does not want one),finding it hard to get Xmas tree out at mo also as last time it were up it was my son's 1st Xmas,every occasion I think of him
Great to hear your friends are rallying around to help. Can understand you finding it hard to put up your tree without think of yor son, what about your daughter is she still enthusiastic about christmas?
Hi there been so busy ,have enrolled myself for xtra study and been good not drinking,yes my daughter cannot wait so I have to try but poor girl's phone been cut off,her dad wont pay and I cannot afford as I got no money,makes me angry when I have to pay my boy's dad a court fine,there were many occasions when I gave him money for my boy and for electric even food from my cupboards when he had nothing despite he was getting £90 a week for my son,I really have been cr*pped all over,but I believe in Karma and his health is poor,may sound nasty but he took my son and I realise now that it was planned,was waste of time me posting on fb also as only 5 people shared it!!
Well done on the studying and the not drinking. It's great that your daughter is looking forward to Christmas and maybe she can look at getting a little Saturday job to be able to pay for her phone. Under 16s can get jobs in food-related places (my eldest worked getting wet fish ready in a chippy once he was 15)
Hope you can start to make some preparations for Christmas for your daughter's sake, it needn't cost much, we used to make our own paper chains etc and have fun doing it and I once got a load of presents from a jumble sale!!!!!! Can you make something special to eat for Christmas day?
I know but I have been trying to pay £1 a week to my creditors but I need to organise payment books because cant use bank account,I am just not caring about things