Hi michelle. I would love to give you a positive hug right now. Maybe when it was said about grieving, it could possibly mean that you're grieving for the lack of love shown by your own Mum, grieving for the life you had before you had your son. I guess it could be for a number of things that have happened in your life. You're not stupid by any means, so please don't put yourself down. I know you're going through turmoil at the moment, but honest to God, you sound like a brilliant Mum. You take your child out, you play with him, your first and foremost thought is of him. Today you're feeling more low, which also makes things seem ten times worse. I don't know if this has been mentioned to you, but there are always the Samaritans that you can call. Please keep posting, we are all here for you, and will continue to offer our support. Take care. xxx
You are also incredibly brave...
I too was saddened by the news of Amy Winehouse. Was talking about this with my daughter.
Thinking of you so much. And please, don't think your hugs wouldn't be welcome. They would be.
Dear michellesmithuk
You poor thing, you are really feeling it aren't you, it sounds as though you could do with a big warm hug from everyone. I understand how you are feeling, I have been there and I want you to know that although you feel very alone at the moment, we are all here for you and would give you that warm hug and the break it sounds like you are craving.
You have been doing so well recently, it seems you have taken on board things that have been said here and made steps to move forward with your situation.
The death of Amy Winehouse was such a shock and I think if we are feeling low, this kind of news can make us feel even worse. Please be kind to yourself.
When you talk to someone like the psychologist, it can be very upsetting and also eye opening. I often used to come away feeling worse than when I went in.
However you say that you feel it could have been some help, but your son was around, which is definitely not the best situation for you to concentrate. As she has asked if you could get some childcare for your son for these appointments, I think you must ask her to either contact your social worker herself or get her to write a letter saying as much. It might help.
When you are feeling at your lowest, it can really help to call some of those helplines out there, Louise has already mentioned Family Lives, but I am going to write the numbers here again for you, thethe first 2 are 24/7 confidential helplines:
Family Lives 0808 800 2222
Samaritans 08457 90 90 90
This number is for birth parents who are giving their child up for adoption, they can offer you support and information. (Not sure if this is 24/7)
After Adoption 0800 840 2020
It sounds as though you are needing more support than just a Monday and Wednesday, would you consider calling these numbers?
Hi michelle,
I have followed your thread but havent posted till now.
I would just like to say that I think you have shown a lot of courage and a whole heap of love for your son to want him to have what you truly believe you cannot give to him xxx
What I have read from you has come across as completely unselfish and so honest which cant be easy xxx
I wish you all the luck in the world with whatever you do decide and hope that you and your son go on to both have very happy lives be it together or apart xxx
I would love to give you a great big hug xxx
Lots of love to you xxx
I hope everything goes ok tomorrow Michelle. Have been thinking of you and your son. A truely difficult time for you. Big hugs on their way to you from all at One Space. Take care, hope you get to post soon. xxx
Hi michellesmithuk, true words said by tiredmum.
Have you spoken with the social worker? What time is she due today? How are you feeling? So many questions! Look forward to hearing from you
Hi michelle, I am thinking of you xxx
I'm new at this but I have been reading the posts. Hello Michellesmithuk, I have been rcently through I.V.F. and lost 9 embryos that didn't take because I am just over forty. 30 thosand dollars later and no baby, when I here your story I just wish there were people like you willing to give up their baby under other circumstances. They don't and the adoption laws over seas are 20 to 50 thousand dollars and in canada the laws are 15 to 30. It's incredible...All we wanted was another child to love...Thanks for listening...
Hi Hello Kitty. I'm so sorry that the lengthy treatment didn't work for you. It must be devastating for you. My brother and his wife also went through treatment, and like you, it didn't work for them, so I do have some sort of understanding, though not totally, as I have a child of my own.
Thankyou for coming here and telling your story to Michelle and to others. Good luck to you for the future. xx
Hi Michelle. How are you? Really hope things are ok. Have been thinking of you in the last week. Take care. xx
Hey,
can I just say that you have already shown how much you have to offer your son! You have and still are doing everything you - and others - can think off!
Really big Hug! x