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Hi Pinkgrapefruit, i have read your thread tonight on here. I am new to this site and i just want to say you are an amazing inspiration and please, please don,t let this blip in your life knock you down hun.
Take a good look in the mirror and see how far you have come in the last few years and then give yourself a pat on the back for doing so well.
Have a lovely Easter with your little boy and heres hoping the Easter bunny leaves a special chocolate easter egg for you.
Big hugs Jaynee. xx
Hi, thank you all so much for your posts. I've just had a little cry at all your kind words.
Last Friday I got home from school (last day of term) to find he'd posted my keys through the door with a note saying his decision was final and he didn't want to hear from me. I was gutted so called him. He picked up the phone but was very surprised it was me (I suspect he'd deleted my number, hence name didn't come up and he didn't recognise actual number), anyway i said I really needed to talk to understand but he refused, saying it was final and whilst he was sad it was the right thing - then - and this is the crap bit - he said he'd hand up in 10 seconds as he didn;t want to talk, i carried on saying i was upset and needed to understand, then he literally started counting down and hung up! I was gutted as it was the only time we've spoken since the very short phone conversation when he'd dumped me and he didn't give me an opportunity to say anything or tell me anything. Anyway i was upset so a good friend came round that evening and we managed to come up with lots of reasons why i should be relieved its over. I've just got back from a few days at my parents - lovely and relaxing and its impossible to be too miserable in this weather - but everytime i have time to think i still am upset and just very disappointed that things could have ended so suddenly and turned out so badly - especially as all the way through the relationship we were trying to do things differently, and honestly and maturely.
Need to get some nice days out planned for later this week - anyone got any good ideas for Good Friday? we're going to an easter egg hunt on Sat but could do with something fun and outdoors for Fri...
thanks for all your messages xxxx
Hi pinkgrapefruit. I am so pleased you are ok, and delighted that you and your friend came up with reasons why you should be relieved it's over. Wow, giving you a countdown, that is totally unbelieveable. I had to read your post twice to make sure I'd read it right!!! You've been through worse than this, so we know you can get through this little blip. I am still sorry though that he has treated you in this way. I do feel that we all know each other here, so when someone is hurting, it affects us too. Its great that you have 'real' friends too, to give you support when needed.
Good idea visiting your parents, getting away from everything, and the blips!!!!
I haven't anything planned for the Easter weekend, so can't offer suggestions I'm afraid. Just hoping the weather stays the same, then pool in the garden maybe. Hope your son is ok, and enjoying the hols. Probably looking forward to the eggs too. Take care. xx
Hi pink grapefruit
Gosh I was really shocked about the countdown thing....at least now you know what you were dealing with. I once had a relationship with a bloke who finished it abruptly when he found out that my exhusband still came to the house, to see the boys, he did not like that and made assumptions that were not true. What I am saying to you is that sometimes people have certain "blind spots" that have little basis in reality. Wow, you need a partner you can rely on, not one who has such hang-ups.
Glad your friend was able to give you some good counsel and you have been pampered by your parents. As for a Good Friday outing, the forecast is great so outdoors would seem best, what about a picnic in the park?
Hi - woke up feeling pretty fed up - it hurts because he was taking a day off work today and we were all going to do something fun together so i can't help but wonder where he is and what he's doing and why doesn't want to be with us :(
Anyway son has got twin friends round to play at the moment and I'm kind of hovering in the background - trying to leave them to play on their own but hoping no one is getting left out and the house isn't getting too trashed - they have just charged in from playing football in the garden up to his bedroom, all sounds quiet and happy at the moment :)
hope you're all having good day xx
I'm stunned at how he acted! I can only say I'm shocked too.
Glad you've had some time out.
I hope you have some really good times over the hols with your son. Its amazing what our children can get us through.
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Hi - well in this weather its just silly to be too miserable isn't it? Took son for a great day out today at local stately home, normally quite pricey but we were there for the full day and they had loads of easter stuff going on so i feel like we got our money's worth. It was great to see him jumping in the fountains, feeding a baby calf, cuddling baby lambs, playing on the adventure playground etc - I'm really trying to focus on having some nice days together and not allowing myself to get down about the situation altho its never far from my mind. I never meet single blokes, all my friends are girls and they are all in couples, any single teachers at school are much younger than me, and I never really do anything else so I'm pretty resigned to being single for a long long time now, possibly forever. I met cruel ex on an internet dating site and, having had some previous scary experiences, I was incredibly guarded and wary at first with everyone i chatted to. After i'd met this guy tho and started to get to know him I really thought he was a trustworthy decent guy who just, like me, found it hard to meet new people at our age, now i wonder what he was looking for. I suspect whilst he must have liked me somewhat he never thought about it as a potential 'forever' relationship, but then sometimes he grumbled that he thought i held back from him and he wanted complete depth and intimacy in our relationship - hmmmm fine way to repay me when that is what I really tried to give but now he won't even speak to me!!
anyway thats that - am determined to make a start on my marking tonight
hope everyone has had a great day xxx
So glad you had a good day.
I've spent loads this week. The children tell me it was worth it...!!
Loads of hugs pink grapefruit. xxxxxxxxxx
Good morning pinkgrapefruit. Sounds like a lovely day yesterday for you and son. Did you manage to get some marking done? I hope you've got many more days planned, so you're keeping yourself occupied and not dwelling too much on what has happened. Have a lovely weekend. xx
oh dear....last night went downhill, did a bit of marking then got fed up, started thinking, and stupidly called him. He answered the phone but basically just said that it was over and time to move on and he isn't prepared to talk on any basis. I said I find that difficult as I've shared my life completely with him on every level and whilst i can accept he's ended the relationship its hard to have no contact whatsoever, makes me feel rubbish. anyway he said thats the way its going to be and hung up on me. i regret calling him, i guess i just find it so hard to accept the rejection. Somehow i know i've got to find the strength never to contact him again now, its just tough in the evening when son is in bed and i start thinking. Also son goes away tomorrow for a holiday with his dad, dreading being on my own with time to think all day and night. need to find some will power from somewhere.
apart from thinking about the situation had another good day with son, big bike ride to a local easter egg hunt / fayre - great fun in the sunshine.
thanks for all your support
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Hey pinkgrapefruit. Don't beat yourself up over phoning him, I've been there, and got the t-shirt!!! It took me ages to not get in touch, and I know how hard it is. For someone to cut you out of their life just like that, then I don't think they deserve to have someone like you. It will be hard with your son going away, but keep yourself occupied, do the garden, visit friends etc, even do the marking. We're all here for you ALWAYS. xxx
Hi pinkgrapefruit, I`m sorry you are having such a hard time, it is so hard isnt it when a relationship we believe is great comes to an abrupt end. I do think on the one hand he seems cruel and unfeeling and on the other he is doing what he thinks best and possibly in his own "male" way trying not to prolong the agony for you, I`m not defending what he has done or the insensitive way in which he has done it but if he does want it to be over then maybe its the only way he can do it?
I do hope you will be ok over the next few days that your son is away, we are all here for you xxx
It sounds like you've had a good day with your son.
Be kind to you too.
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Hello pink grapefruit, yes I can totally sympathise with the contact thing. My top tip: delete his numbers from your phone and scribble them out in your address book, just protecting yourself really.
Talk with your counsellor about how you feel. A book I can recommend is here.
Do use the time your son is away to do some nice things for yourself and have a good rest. We are all here for you!
thanks for your kind messages. had a very wobbley day, think the fact my son was going away has been hanging over me. he got picked up this afternoon and i just feel very lonely. done a bit of marking til all the numbers started merging together so will leave it til tomorrow to continue.
a few years ago there was me, husband, son, dog.
then there was me, son, dog.
then there was me, son, boyfriend, dog.
then me, son, boyfriend (dog died in jan)
now its just me and son.
can't get another dog - too difficult whilst working full time.
i always wanted a big family - even my son has started to ask why no one likes me as his dad left and now boyfriend has gone - must say i'm thinking the same thing, how can i have so many good friends but be seemingly unloveable by partners? Looking forward to seeing counsellor on tuesday as feeling so down altho am feeling like counselling sessions (which are limited to only 4 or 5 as through gp) are being hi-jacked by situation with boyfriend rather than the longer term feelings that were in the background before.
tomorrow i'm going to go to the gym, do more marking, tidy desk and maybe pop to the shops altho need to get on track with my spending - its got a bit out of control compared to income recently
hope you are all ok, sorry to be wallowing in self misery xx
Hi pinkgrapefruit. You're not wallowing in self misery, far from it. Completely out of the blue you have found yourself on your own again, and because there was no warning, it has come as a massive shock. You and your son are going to be just fine, you were before you met this man, and you will be again. Keeping yourself busy for the next few days until your son returns is a great idea. xx
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Hi pinkgrapefruit, sending you a big hug xxx
Hope you are ok tonight, thinking of you xxx
Hello pink grapefruit
Although I am sorry to hear you are down, I am here to tell you it is NORMAL. if you came out of what has been a lengthy relationship and said I don't care then that might be worrying, but it is right to mourn what you have lost, even if the conclusion might be in the long run that it was the right thing to happen, right now it is good to feel your feelings and express them, whether to friends or writing on here.
Re the counsellor: they might be able to extend it by a session or two, worth an ask.
Look after yourself duirng these few days, we are all here 
I'm so proud of myself - today was the day i was really dreading, first day with son away, bank holiday so friends all doing family stuff etc - but i got up and sat outside sunbathing and marking for about 4 hours - got so much work done :) then popped to some factory shops nearby to buy a new pair of trousers and a couple of summery tops for when I'm back at school, and now have just got back from a swim! Just going to tidy up some more work then going to download some music onto my old i-pod that hasn't had any new music on it for years. WOuld hate to be without my son too much but I'm just amazed at what I can fit into a day! Had lots of loud cheerful music to keep me going and must say the feeling of satisfaction of getting on top of things beats the feelings i had of wishing to be out for day with boyfriend so hopefully i've started to recover a bit from the misery.
tomorrow got the counselling session followed by coffee with a good friend so looking forward to that. Can't believe the gorgeous weather is still here, got a better tan now than I normally achieve in a whole summer, definately helps me to feel more cheerful to have a bit of warmth.
thanks so much for all your support xx
Brilliant pinkgrapefruit, thats all I can say. Keep going xxx
Pinkgrapefruit, good for you and well done!!!!!!!! xxx
I'm so glad you've had a busy day.
Absolutely brilliant!
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slept really badly last night - missing son lots, seems a long time until Friday when he returns. trying to tidy the mountain of assorted paperwork I have on my desk - not the most exciting job but it really needs doing.
oooh first good thing of the day....finally managed to get through to the tax credits phone line - aren't they just the worst people in the world to get hold of.....only rang for about 20 seconds before a real person answered, thats a record for me!
Before you know it Friday will be here, and if you keep busy, then it'll fly by. I would be the same though pinkgrapefruit. That must definately be a first, getting through so quickly on the phone!!!
Hellooo pinkgrapefruit, I am just catching up on the boards again, I have been busy with other website stuff.
Wow you have been through a lot, I have to say I totally agree with sparklinglime and hazeleyes, your ex was incredibly rude and disrespectful.
You and he seemed to be working on so many levels, you were a lot more balanced and sounded quite in control of things. But for him to drop you from such a great height and then not have the courtesy to discuss with you anything further, is sooo aaarrggghhh out of order. How dare he? It's appalling behaviour. And not the person he led you to believe he was as far as I'm concerned.
Anyway that is in the past now and it is the present and the future that counts. It sounds as though Monday was a winner of a day, today is not going too badly either eh? I hope counselling was good? And coffee with your buddy?
Don't spend this evening missing your son, or calling your ex. It is strange being home alone, however you must DO something....
Is there anyone you can hang out with?
Have you got a favourite dress/item of clothing, that you love, but never get the chance to wear?? If so, get a take out - (from the supermarket, to cut costs) have a lovely bath, get your lovely clothes on, best make-up - or even do some fancy new make up styling! Then eat your meal watching the box.
Perhaps do some more paperwork? Paint a room? Move your bedroom around?
When you are in bed tonight, don't think about missing anyone. Think about what you are doing right now - (its a buddhist thing) So concentrate on your bed, the room, the sounds around you, the feel of the sheets, the smells and only let yourself concentrate on the 'Right Now', if your mind wanders just remind yourself that you are thinking about the 'rightnow'!!
I was doing it last night as I couldn't sleep, something was really bothering me. However it is pointless going over and over things in your mind as you can't really do anything at that moment! So concentrate on having a nice nights sleep :)
PS: I am a little envious of you having the week off, no work, no children etc, please relish that thought!
Thanks. Yes lovely day after a bit of a slow start. Got my desk tidied tho and lots of ex stuff thrown out - Christmas cards, notes, valentines cards etc, pointless hanging onto them as whenever I saw them they would make se sad so it felt good to get rid of them.
great session with my counsellor - really starting to pinpoint my main issue - need to find the real me but then stick as the real me with other people, especially partners. In my marriage and in this last relationship I compromised too much, always put the man first and I worked too hard to make him love me which all stems from my childhood. Am going to spend some time just being me and learning to accept that I can be like that all the time - i probably haven;t explained that very clearly here but I am actually quite clear with what i mean!
Anyway then had great afternoon with friend plus a mooch around the shops - only just got home - such a novelty not having to rush around and get back for son!
Tomorrow I'm going in to school to tidy my classroom, couple of other teachers going in too I think so the plan is to do a couple of hours at school then go for lunch with them. Then tomorrow evening I'm meeting up with another friend.
Son phoned today, he's having a great time which is nice to know, can't wait for an enormous cuddle tho when he gets back :)
Thanks for all your lovely words
xx
Glad your son is having a good time.
You sound so positive, which is fantastic.
Tomorrow sounds like another good day planned too! Have a lovely lunch.
Hey pinkgrapefruit, it does sound good. I just love it when you don't have to rush around to get back for supper/bedtime/bathtime etc!
It is always good to know that our children are happy when they are away, it means we can carry on for a bit guilt free! Its quite an odd feeling i find!
Brilliant that you are recognising your main issue with counselling, my mum alsways used to say 'Be true to yourself' but I never understood that, but now I am an adult, I get it and pass it on to my daughter.
Good luck with tidying your classroom, that'll be fun. This week definitely sounds like a week of clearing out the old and starting afresh for you.
Keep your chin up you are doing a great job.
Hi pinkgrapefruit. Hope you've had a fab day today, not so much tidying the classroom of course hehe. You sound so up which is great to hear. A step forward to clearing out stuff that only makes you sad. Well done. It took me forever to do that sort of thing. Wonderful to hear that your son is also having a great time, at least you've got no worries there. You are doing so well, keep it up. xxx
Hi,
yesterday was good, pleased to get my classroom tidy, hopefully it will make me feel bit better about going back to school next week.
Then had lovely lunch and catch up in the sunshine with 2 other teachers. Then had a swim altho was really tired so just lounged around the pool really.
Then yesterday evening met up with another single friend. Had such a good laugh at the mistakes and innappropriate relationships we've found ourselves in. I explained that I feel bad that I haven't seen much of her recently as I was so wrapped up in relationship but she said thats just what happens in reality and its fine and we've agreed that we must see lots more of each other now. Will be nice to have someone to go to the cinema or for a coffee with sometimes.
Big treat yesterday too - I bought some new pillows for my bed, the old ones had gone so flat! Well they are amazing, had such a good nights sleep last night, just hope they keep their volume!
Today is going to be busy as son returns tomorrow morning :) need to go to Wilko's to get some cheap cleaning stuff, go to the supermarket and plan a nice meal for son's return, mow the lawn and clean the house. Then this evening got 2 new friends coming over - they are Mums of a couple of son's friends from school, we always seem to hit it off when i bump into them so thought i'd take the plunge and invite them over - they seemed really pleased so that will be nice to get to know them better.
Hope you are all having a good start to the day xx
Hey hey, its all sounding really good pinkgrapefruit! It seems as though this weke has been refresshing and revitalising, probably very good that your son was away too, it has meant you have had time to focus on you.
Well done for taking the plunge and inviting new friends over, I hope you have loads of fun!
Happy cleaning!!! 
Have a wonderful time pinkgrapefruit. I'm so pleased that everything is settling down for you. xx
oh dear...I'm feeling really bad.... was supposed to be going for a walk and lunch this morning with one of the female teachers from school, anyway yesterday evening i wrote a list of everything i wanted to do before son got back and decided i would rather tackle all of that than go for this planned walk....so i rang her last night and left a message on her ansaphone saying sorry but i wasn't going to go. Anyway then i forgot all about it til late this morning when I got back from supermarket to find she'd left message for me wondering where i was.....she obviously hadn't got my message last night :( i tried to call her straight away but no reply....she just lives up the road so i dashed out and bought her flowers and took them to her house, the cars were there but no-one answered the door so i left the flowers and a note in the porch...have tried again just now and still no one answering the phone, hate to let people down, feel really bad :( spoiliing my day worrying about it. grrrr.
Wonder if you have the wrong phone number if she did not get message? The flowers was a lovely thing to do. Try not worry about it, you did your best.
The flowers are a lovely gesture.
Did you manage to speak to your friend pinkgrapefruit? Sending the flowers was really lovely of you. Is your son home yet? Hope you have a fab weekend together. xx
Hi, finally got hold of my friend yesterday (altho her kids were screaming in the background so it was really hard to talk!), anyway at least i was able to apologise. it turns out she had found my ansaphone message eventually so i feel a bit better, still bit awkward tho.
son got back at 8am this morning - I'd only just got up. He was so delighted to see me and be home, it was so lovely he wouldn't stop talking and cuddling me all morning! he's tired out now he's home so we just had a lazy day watching the wedding and popping in and out of the garden. He got a bit grumpy this evening but i think its just because he's tired out. He's fast asleep now anyway and its a relief to have him home.
I'm feeling bit down even tho son is back today. Think school is starting to loom again (we go back on Tues), still loads of work to do and dreading having to work most evenings again - hard getting back into that gear every term. Also its a week since i i made that second phone call to my ex and he hung up on me again. I don't want to ring him as i know i'll just get frustrated but i'm still really hurt that he can cut me off so cleanly and suddenly - i just don't think either of us knew the other at all - been thinking about it, i included him in every aspect of my life, he just included me with some stuff but there were big chunks that he never discussed with me and i was too shy to ask about. feeling stupid and lonely - would be so nice to have someone to give me a hug and make me a cup of tea sometimes. i know thats it now and i just need to be on my own but that makes me quite sad.
might have a bath in a minute, am avoiding work or the phone!
I'm so glad your son is home.
I don't think you can but help think of the end of the holidays now, especially when the weather has been so good too. Seems more relaxing, somehow.
I'm off to bed in the mo - but only because I didn't get my early night last night, and I'm going simply because I can!
I hope you enjoy your bath.
Stay strong pink grapefruit.
I have to say that when friend who's pushing it was my b/f, he knew everything about me, but I actually knew very little about him - and still don't. Not because I was shy, but because I don't really have a curious nature.
There are so many questions I'll never have answered after my marriage - and they were questions I put to The Git and felt I deserved answers to after a twenty year marriage. I actually think it gave him a kick not answering them.
They are questions I'd still like answers to, but know its a case of tough now.
Loads of hugs and a virtual cup of tea from me. My youngest just hobbled over with a lemonade for me - which is nice.
For me, I just feel that my life is easier with "just" me. That's not being negative, but recognising that I seem to choose the same personality.
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Thanks for the message sparklinglime, hope you got lots of sleep.
Unanswered questions are quite hard to deal with aren't they? My counsellor says I have to accept I'm not going to get the answers from ex-boyfriend and that I have to find them through talking to her or my friends. Am reaching quite a few conclusions, many of which I think I should have reached much earlier in the relationship rather than being so determined that it was perfect and we could make it work.
Yes, I agree life is easier on my own however i just find it a bit boring....the good bit is that i'm calm on my own, no big highs and lows. The downside is I miss those highs. Not to worry tho I feel bit more upbeat today (I always seem to early in the day, its the evenings that get me!), have had a lovely day with son at home, just pottering around and suiting the two of us. We had a mammoth cupcake baking session and now have loads of different ones to eat out way through.
Its strange a couple of friends have recently admitted to problems in their marriage, I know that all marriages can't be happy all the time but from an outsider its very easy to get into the mindset where I think that everyone else is happy apart from me. Perhaps because I'm being honest about being unhappy and lonely at the moment it seems to generate honesty from others which is good too. Puts my own problems in perspective too. Am looking into being more in touch with my emotions, recognising and acknowledging them, as I'm very prone to ignoring my true feelings and emotions and acting like everything is ok all the time - can anyone recommend any books on that kind of thing? I've seen a coupl e of websites but an actual book would be good.
Thanks for the hugs and virtual cup of tea - just what I needed!
take carexxxxxxx
I think I've learnt a lot about me these last couple of years recently - I'd say that being told that I had severe athritis while GPs had been telling me for four years that stress was leaving me with wonky legs.
It's as if 'knowing' has been empowering.
As for accepting how things are, that was a massive turning point with The Git. I still have lapses - as you know - but on the whole, I actually feel stronger.
xxx
Hiya pinkgrapefruit, glad your son is back and he had a good time.
I wish I had been online when your friend had missed your message as it sounded as though you were desperately trying to make it up to her. I really I wanted to say to you - you are are not to blame! It was no-one's fault and there was no need for you to feel guilty that she had missed your message.
Anyhow....that is in the past now! A book I harped on about before is You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Haye. My counsellor recommended it years ago. It is not everyone's cup of tea, but I found it a life changer and still refer to it time and again.
How about asking your counsellor to recommend a book, I am sure she has a few up her sleeve!?
Hi Anna, I've just looked at the book on Amazon and it sounds pretty good - i get really anxious about stuff that I shouldn't and it looks like it might be useful for that. I'm going to ask my counsellor for book suggestions too when I see her next week (only got 2 sessions left - am quite upset about the thought of that stopping, its like a lovely release valve at the moment) and then decide what to buy. At the moment I'm enjoying re-reading Pride and Prejudice for pure escapism!!
Went back to school today which was hard - was sad to drop son off at breakfast club, really hard to get back into that gear of being busy all the time again. At least with no boyfriend to squeeze time in for then I have a bit more time in my days / weeks altho I suspect I'll just end up spending that time working which isn't ideal - in order to avoid that I'm going to try to be organised and keep some 'me time' in the week (I used to be very good at getting enough ahead of myself that once a week I'd have a midweek night with no work so that I could see boyfriend - i need to keep that night to just pamper myself and take it easy I think. Still feeling raw about boyfriend altho now can quite clearly seen that he can't have been right for me. JUst hurts that i opened up so much of my life to him and I miss having someone there to call and just chat or to make me a cup of tea or snuggle up to on a saturday night. Really need to find out more about myself tho now.
Really appreciate your message Anna, you always talk so much sense :)
Thanks
Hi pink grapefruit
Great idea about booking in a bit of "me" time. I know you are still hurting about what has happened but try to see it as a learning experience. As you move forward you are building more and more knowledge about what is right for you.
Good luck with being back at school!
Hi pinkgrapefruit
One thing I have learnt about overcoming anxiety is to really concentrate on the here and now. From big things to small things, there is no need to be worrying about something that is going to happen in a couple of hours, days or maybe even never. As soon as you say to yourself, I am going to concentrate on what I am doing right now, then for me the anxiety dissipates. If and when you need to be making a decision about something then it will be at 'that time' not any time sooner.
So is tonight your pampering night? What have you got planned?
am failing miserably with the 'me time' idea - still got lessons to plan for tomorrow :( and feeling really tired and fed up, hate having to get back into the swing of rushing around and working in the evenings. I know if I'd been seeing my boyfriend I'd have somehow got the lessons planned already but as I know i'm free i just seem to have left it so that now its unavoidable i have to work. somehow need to get a bit ahead of myself as don't want to feel like this every week and Wednesday's are my toughest day at school so really would be nice to have wednesday night's to relax. not eating properly either which i know doesn't help - living off junk food, chocolate and biscuits this week, total comfort eating.
am really wondering the viability of continuing to work full time. am so shattered and upset and fed up. feel i don't have anything much to look forward to at the moment, never wanted to live my life like this, feeling so hard up and so tired all the time with no time, at least during term time, for much fun. so lonely too, got lots of friends who rallied round in the first few days i'd been dumped but feel i can't keep ringing them and being miserable but just really lonely on my own again.
sorry, bit of a miserable night, hopefully will feel bit better when i get this work done and a decent night's sleep.
Maybe you could set yourself a timetable at home as well as at school? It is always worth considering whether to go part time as well, although I would mention that unless you are very careful your "part time" sort of expands to fit the time available Are there many part time jobs in teaching near you? You need to make sure you do enough hours to get your Working Tax Credit. If you want any advice as to the money side of things, do email our 1-2-1 Money specialists.
In the meantime, after this week there are only three more to half term!
Hi pinkgrapefruit. Hope you're ok today. It sounds like you have some lovely friends, and I'm sure they wouldn't mind you calling them when you're down. It's early days for you still. Comfort eating is ok, but do take care of yourself. If you don't eat properly, then your energy levels are low, so in turn you'll feel more tired and depressed. Lecture over hehe. Not long until the next half term, then of course the Summer holidays to chill out in. Do you have any plans for them?
You're right, tower of strength it is a process to be gone through. Nice to see you here by the way
The grief process (also can be described as the Change Curve) has been ascribed to a few people, most notably Elizabeth Kubler Ross, who first used it with regard to bereavement.
Hope you are Ok pink grapefruit and able to enjoy some time with your son