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Sounds like you've all had a good time. Enjoy the rest of the week.
Sounds like you have had some nice times shaz and I am sure you have done the right thing about the letters. I don't know what will happen re CAFCASS; there is no standard formula as every situation and every family is different.
morning all wow the sun is shining here so il have to make the most of it and go out and do the garden and vac the car . been abit of a hard week not helped by the weather . wednesday i took the boys to sutton needed my glasses looked at and there we saw my ex mother in law and she just walked past even the boys and that hurt . what can you say to try to explain to the boys on that one. then i found out that the ones from australia are going back next week and yet they have not been again to see us and the other son is upset and said to me yesterday why is it everyone is against us . i just sat down with him and tried to have a chat but god never thought a break up could be so hard and draining like this seems to have been .
well i hope everyone as had anice half term
Hi shaz. That wasn't nice of the ex mother in law, and it's not fair on the boys either. I guess all you can do, is keep telling the boys that they haven't done anything wrong, her behaviour has nothing to do with them, etc etc.
Enjoy your day.
How sad is that? And a disgrace.
I hope you enjoy the sunshine and hopefully vac-ing the car will somehow bring some normality to the day...
Hi shaz 5, there are going to continue to be ups and downs, but you are definitely moving forward.
So I guess it was mixed emotions when the letters for the boys turned up. I bet you kind of want your eldest to have a good relationship with his father, but at the same time, he is staying completely loyal.
Have you ever asked your eldest to write to his dad expressing exactly what he wants, tell him that you wouldn't send it, but it would be good for him to get it out of his system perhaps?
evening all i have asked on afew times for him to reply to the letter but he wont and as screamed at me that he doesnt want anything to do with him at all, now or never and since he left he as not changed his mind on that at all to be honest . the little one is following in his brothers steps and i have sat him down and said look if you want to go he can but he says nope too . see how it goes next week with cafcass.
ive had some good news today ive found a lender that will be willing to take me on for the house on my own without having to keep my ex's name on the mortage so im happy and nervous at the same time too, but it is another step forward :)
That does sound good with the house...
Perhaps leaving it to cafcass will be helpful as then its out of your hands. A bit like me blaming the Queen for the children having to go to school.
Great news about the house, shaz. Worrying about your boys, I know, but take the heat out of things and let things settle.
morning all well cafcass was last night and i found the whole thing to be horrible seeing both boys upset and crying and this lady is to write a report and then send it to a judge who then will decide the fate as it were no not nice ...
they have said that the older one it would be far too upsetting to try to let his dad any where near him as he has said that he will run they are hoping that with counselling that he will change his mind but i very much doubt it as he is as strong about if not more so in never seeing his dad . the other son well he as said he may like to see him but that is down to my ex he as to apply for a contact centre but then she did say to break the boys up would be damaging so im confused alittle im leaving it upto them for now as i want the boys to be themselves nowthey dont need any more
my ex's aunt and uncle have now flown back and they didnt come back to see them or to take them out like they said that would so im thinking of emailing them and saying my bit as well as cafcass this as added upset to them, but i kind of knew that they wouldnt come back as they have gone to see my ex and for what ever reason whether they belive in him where as i have paperwork here to back me up i dont know but i shall pick up the pieces again and yet he can live his lie but one day it will come back on him
last saturday went out and meet up with afew from school and boy did we have a laugh as for soem of us we had not seen each other since school . it was a really fab night and will be doing this again
Glad you had a good night out 
As for the auntie and uncle, please do not bother to email them, if it mattered to them they would have been in touch. As it is, you have the dignity of not lowering yourself to their level. Rise above it!!!!!
The CAFCASS meeting sounds very upsetting but at least it seems as if they are recognising the problems the boys have with their dad and why. Horrid to have someone come and write a report about you though. HUG.
Hugs from me too Shaz
Hi shaz 5, ditto what Louise said about emailing the uncle and aunt, it won't help anything OR write it but don't email it. Get your frustration out, but it will fall on deaf ears or the wrong ears and you don't need that.
I am glad that your eldest held his ground with the CAFCASS officer - you have a sterling boy there shaz5, I know it is not nice for them, but sooner rather than later a decision can be made and then they can move on too.
Saturday night sounds fun, so good to get out with the girls eh. Oh and brilliant to see you post to another user. We think of you often and hope to see you through to the 'other side (!)' basking in glorious rays of light 
morning all well ive got to go to the bank and get more statements for the money side of things as my ex says they are missing and i cant get them off . im not happy with what my solic asked him and his replies , he as put down that the large amounts of money are due to bills , outgoings living costs presents etc yet he as not said why there is baliffs going to him nor as he produced a letter from his work saying that his job is ok he as just said that he keeps his job . just wish it was over alot going on with caffcass getting intouch with the boys schools and also the older one as gone back to counselling as ive had rough times with him screaming that he doesnt want to see him and crying at school so it was them who got intouch with someone about more counselling and he is letting it out more but is still head strong that he doesnt want to see his dad at all . what a mess but there is light i sat last night going over things and thinking may be i did do something wrong in the ways that i acted but then i stopped and told myself that if that was the case then he could have talked to me . which way i go it does boil down to him and he had the choice to talk to me not do what he did .
got one sons leaving assembley thurs both got open days next week at their new schools so over the weekend i have a lot of forms to fill in and get ready also sports day being the last one for my older one .parents evening too gosh alot and sadden as im doing it alone and trying to get the uniforms as and when i can as it will be alot to do this year . next weekend my little schools as a fete on so we are helping there and the older one's birthday coming up too my head feels like its going to burst
i had a email the other day from the unlce saying that they were very sorry not to have come back time got to them they hope to try to make it up the next time in 2years . they did say that they went to see my ex and that they sat him down and gave him a good talking too and told him that he had to make the kids come first in what ever he does before anything , going out his new partner etc but that is too late as he hasnt done so . then they went on to say that with his mother they were deeply hurt and sadden that she as not been there for her gransons and that they hoped i would stay intouch and that we will always be in their thoughts sent us love . but to me a text or call would have helped may be im being too hard on myself as in ways i still do blame me .
well it is looking dull here and looks like we are in for more rain when we break up im thinking i must do a good clean cupboards etc whether that gets done remains to be seen lol hope everyone is well
Hello shaz, on one hand your uncle is saying all the right things...but they did not come and see you, maybe they felt the whole situation was just too highly charged. I am glad you had an email from them, though.
The financial stuff can be very stressful and you have all the end of term stuff and both your boys moving school.....you will be glad of the summer break!
I'm sure your sons are looking forward to moving up with school. Strange for the parents though, I feel, although by the time my youngest moved up I was quite glad. A new Head at the school made it all so much easier.
The Git never came to any of the sports days or events with me, so really things were no different there. It was a long time before some people realised what had happened...
I hope counselling helps your son. So hard for you - for all of you.
morning last night was hard as my eldest son put on a play and it was his leaving assembly , the play was so brill but i did well up and at home cried . he is looking forward to seniors, where as the little not so sure he is looking forward to the juniors ! it is hard as i thought we would do this as a couple so last night was hard and i wanted a hug .
yes im glad that his uncle did email us and i never thought of that louise that he may have felt it was too much for him . yes this stage of the divorce is not nice at all and very stressful ! been to the bank to get what i hope is what he wants again im waiting for the solic on monday to call her as what he as replied back im not happy with either not really . wish i had just put it all down to living costs and present s like has ! how can they do that and think its ok when i seem to have had to give blood
be glad when over with and we dont have to get any more letters and court dates i knew he would play hard as he didnt want a divorce he told me that well he can jog on if after what he has done to think that i would have him back
yesterday went to work and the day before my class had not been good well all of this week not good so they had all wrote me a letter and i was given them yest and oh i cried reading them it was lovely to see what they put in them
well off shopping in a bit then work then my other job we can go in early so striaght from one job to another but i finish early spend some time with the boys then before we go swimming till 10 tonight lol since we stopped going to gingerbread we have been swimming and yet i have not gone back to gingerbread think we may be scared just in case my ex comes again weekend time again and not coping too good at times on weekends always still . this one sunday little one as a party to go too .
Hello shaz, yes when they leave primary school it is a really emotional occasion. I cried when my eldest was in the leaving procession. I could not attend my youngest's because of work but my memory of him in Year 6 was the play he was in (he was the Tin Man in Wizard of Oz) when I also cried!
That sounds lovely that the children in your class wrote you that letter
You're right, the court stuff goes on and on, but you are on the last leg now and have come so far. Sadly there isn't a time when you can say right that's it and put your feet up as there is the next slice of life to get on with but the pressure WILL ease
These times when they're moving up in school are never easy...
Hope you're ok shaz. xx
morning all not feeling the best think i may be coming down with a cold joys . yes not a nice time this year with both leaving got open nights tonight and tomorrow at the juniors and the seniors . not liking doing all the forms the weekend for the seniors on my own got teary abit . this weekend is the school fete just hoping the weather dries up abit shame otherwise . helping out there .. rang the solic yesterday over some of the answers my ex as sent to me over his side of the money side and to be honest i cant see that they can get out of saying stuff. where my solic asked him from a letter from his work place regarding his job he asnt got a letter headed one he as wrote one himself ! has not sent in the pensions fron his job nor has he said why the balifs are going to him so i have asked for that one to be answered . with his job and the letter she as told me to forget it as he will lie and yet she said she knows he has been convicted and as a record but now for me and the boys its best he keeps his job for paying so when we go to court for the this on the 23 july because he as not got much time to answer these questions it may have to go for another date so i have got alittle mad with this as i would like it to end now im very drained and tired of it as i keep having to get stuff and it seems never ending .
why do they think that they can lie and get away with it , i knew he would always be funny over the divorce as he didnt want one and told me that and did say he would make my life hell if i did divorce him. the trouble with him he wanted his cake and eat it wanted the best of both worlds and i wouldnt give it to him and nor would i take him back as he as done too much now and continues to do so . one day i knwo it will end but till that day comes it is hard to even get up some times but i do .
the weekend after it is my sons 11th birthday and on the sat my little one is going for a day trip with beavers so me and the older one are going for something to eat and it being his choice to where we go .
weather looks dull and wet here yet again like others getting cery sick of the rain garden grows too quick lol hope everyone is well and has a good day
That will be a lovely treat, just you and your eldest
There is a limit to how long the court hearing can be deferred and the judge tends to be quite strict with people hiding/not providing information. Just do the thing we always say and HOLD YOUR NERVE. That's hard when you are so tired of it all, but truly it is the very last part of it.
Hope you are not coming down with a cold, not long now till the end of term though.
morning all yes im full of a cold may be stress and being tired as not helped but i shall dose myself up again.
little ones school fete saturday and the weather is not looking hopefull :( well the both boys have had their open nights and last night was the seniors and i least got the pe kit and paid abit for the trip and got his tie and badge . i know afew were saying im not buying it yet but it has to be done and i has saved up for some . the blazer and shoes and trainers are nexted . i am hoping that my ex may cough some up for it may see abit of heart for it .
my son went yesterday for the day and came out really happy i cried and was a abag of nerves all day for him but for what he had a fab time loves his new school already as some ideas as to what he wants to learn when he can pick lessons and likes his new classmates. the school have parted him from the boy who was his best mate and now calls him names so he is well pleased . his mom and dad were there last night and she was watching me like a hawk as she is reporting back to my ex on everything from the juniors . i was told yesterday by another friend who as recieved a email from my ex and things in there all pointed to her telling him. i had a feeling she would but after all what i did for her and she does this to me hurts me but then you do find out who really are friends when things happen and i have truely .
yes half term is nearly here and i cant wait to be honest need a break so tired though the first week both boys have got summercamp with their schools so that will be nice something for them to look at and to do. ten i have 2 weeks with them before i have to go to work doing my cleaning job but then i do have the afternoon with them and before we know it will be september . when you work at a school terms come so quick
Good morning shaz
Glad your boy got on so well at his school visit, he will feel more confident now he has seen what is what. I think it was a good idea to get some of the uniform.
As for the other parent watching you, people love to poke their noses in, don't they, and if they have a fairly uneventful life themselves, they can feed off drama in others. If you were smuggling contraband drugs into school then fair enough but all you were doing was going to a parents' evening.
Hope your cold eases, I know the weather doesn't help 
Hope your cold soon goes.
My youngest was so relieved to get out of primary and to meet new friends - and he's made some good friends, which really he never had before.
I'm glad your son is looking forward to moving up.
morning all well the school open nights have been done and the older one cant wait keeps trying on his pe kit so its nice too see . did the school fete saturday helped out and we did have a laugh the weather held till it was finished so that was lovely and we raised over £700 so that was good and we had wished now we went with the bq but weather didnt look all that good at first .
this week the kids have fun things going on at school , ive got the densit today for a small filling and ive got to get things ready as it is my sons birthday sunday and he will be 11, they grow up too quick .
WOW 11, I know the time flies, hope he has a great birthday, what have you got planned?
I hope he has a lovely birthday.
Hi shaz 5, glad the weather held out for the school fete and raising £700 that's a tidy sum do they have plans on what they are going to spend the money on? I hope your son has a great day. Do you have any plans for this weekend?
morning all sally w they are putting it back into the school so they will pay for the kids to go to the theatre and they have discos so the party food gets paid for there all sorts really .
well my son had a lovely birthday started on the sat little one went on a trip with the beavers so i spent the day with the older one and we went shopping and something to eat of his choice and that was lovely plus his birthday came and that was a shock. my friend made it and it was made into a bar of chocolate . sunday was his birthday and the weather was nice so we went for a carvery withh friends and then a nice .
it was sad that his dad sent nothing even though he could and was told that for his birthday he could send cards and gifts i know he sent letters asking what he wanted but my son didnt reply so why didnt he send money ? this will not do him any favours in the court not doing anything yet again for his birthday . my ex mother in law did pop up on the sunday in a taxi dropped off a card with a note inside and money for both . the older one £50 the other one £20 the note was upsetting as she said that it was not her or my sons fault that we parted and grew out of love she missed them and longed to see them with their dad . she missed he hubby who died the year before we split and hoped he looking down on us . hoped that they were ok and worried that we werent going on trips or holidays etc not really a kind a note to put to my son really . when i asked why she come in a taxi she said that she had no one to help her any more . i didnt ask why as i was on way out to work .
had the report back from cafcass they suggest that the kids dont see their dad till they are older which he is not going to like and they say he will be mad with this too .they went on to put that i may have siad things to the kids but all i have is answer their questions when asked by the kids , and i have left them to make up their own minds and to think hard as to say never want too is a strong words and and a long time . she as asked if his dad will go to counselling or try to ask about the counseling of my sons and that we as adults have to try to talk and i am willing but i know he wont agree with the boys not seeing him and he will go ape .
well not much i can do but to be there for the kids they have told what they felt to cafcass court monday for the money side so let me get that over with and then sept and then it will be over with fingers crossed .
apart form that im ok lol weekend was nice and friday we break up so that is nice kids got school camp as they both are moving up so that will keep them busy. work is hard as im on count down for breaking up hope everyone is well
Hello shaz 5,
Life sounds busy for you at present. Glad your son had a good birthday.
You seem to be worried about your ex's response to the Cafcass report. Do you think he may contest it?
With regard to the boys' grandmother; although her note might have been slightly manipulative, it does sound like she genuinely cares about her grandsons. What do you think?
Hope you get the loose ends tidied up at work in time for the end of term!
Best wishes,
Mary
hi had a letter today about what my ex would like in the money side 15% of the house all the endownments plus my own one plus £2000 im to give him for the car i take the house over from now and i dont go for his pension or anything he may get and im too keep all his things whats in the shed to look after for him . if i get involved with another man then im to sell and give him his share i keep the house and my pension and my little savings to me i think he is asking more or is it me ? advice please any one as i go monday
Hello shaz 5,
It does sounds as though he's asking for a lot...15% of the house seems ok, but not being able to ask for a share of his pension for the boys and taking your endowment? & why have you been asked to look after his belongings from the shed?
Can you contact your solicitor to run past them any concerns you have before your court appointment on Moday?
morning all what another sunny lovely day . well court yesterday and it went ok . ive the house and i take over and it is in my name only . we keep our pensions ourselves i pay him £1000 of the joint car we had and that comes from his csa payments so il get them starting nov and he said infront of a judge he will pay them . he gets 20% of the house but he cant get that till little one is either 18 or finishes all his education but if i meet someone but my son is still young i cant be forced to sell to pay him off and this sat his stuff will be on the drive at 10.15 for collection .
im happy would have liked it not to have paid him anything of the house but we were married for so long he is entitled to something even if he did the wrong there are laws and even the solic did say yes its sad and she feels like they shouldnt get anything but its to be fair. plus when i sell he as to pay for the the sell. he cant come for me for costs at all .
today i have a lady coming to sort out my mortage so that is doneand who i have to call. i have retained one of the endownments and gave him 2 that way his share of the house was kept down i think i have got 80% and him 20% i think that is how it worked i know seeing his face he wasnt happy nor looked happy i think he looked sad more so when we were in the court room on our own his new piece was with him drapped all over and she kept looking at me each time she was kissing him or stroking him and this time it didnt pull at me or i cried .
he had brought the kids gifts so i got them in away i get where he was coming from news schools so he got them bags pens etc and that was what he had for his birthday wish for that he had got them money or gift card . he had wrote letters and they had yet again gone unread but they are kept for one day for them to read them . in them he said to my older one he would have come to support him on his sports day yet he cant have direct contact but he has not said that to our other son on his sports day so that was hurtful . i know he loves them both he is sending more affection to the older one to try to mend what he has caused but it is hurting the little one .
well that is it for now school holidays now start from here after i have got court out the way . went to the park yest with really good friends and the kids that was nice little one as got school camp till lunch time its new thing they have started to get them used to juniors , he went yest and loved it next week school camp for the other son as he has moved to seniors and the things that they have got ready for tehm is fab so he will have a fun week .
thanks for the update shaz souinds like you coped really well - it can't have been easy
Hooray! Let the summer commence! This all sounds really good shaz5, one of your main concerns was keeping the house and you have - brilliant!
Good to hear that your youngest enjoyed his school camp. They have both had so much going on, once some normality has set back in over the holidays, they can put the past behind them and look to the future.
Your eldest will get through this, he has every right to be angry and it must be really hard for him as he sounds like a strong little man who doesn't like going back on his decisions.
The park with good friends sounds fab, hopefully lots more good weather to come and more outdoor fun with your boys.
PS. Good email from your uncle, it sounds as though they really do care about you and the boys.
Now, what do you have planned over the summer? Anything especially nice for yourself for getting through the last year and surviving?? 
Glad that's done and sounds as if it went well.
You take care shaz
Hello shaz5, I just wanted to say to you that I hope you have looked in the mirror and told yourself what a wonderful job you have done these past many months We are very proud of you! You and the boys are going into a new phase now, HOORAY, so I hope you will have a lovely time together this summer. What have you got planned?
morning all yes im delighted very much that the money side of the divorce is well over and i can settle more , yes its is going to be hard but i will get there . my dad is going to sort me out with paint so i can make my own stamp on it now .
well i have got my eldest son poorly over the weekend we ended up rushing to gp on fri night after school then childrens hospital sat as we didnt know if he had a viral infection or meningitis . thankfully it turned out to be a bad viral and is now on the mend though he lacks engery still he is a lot better than last weekend.
he as got summer camp at the seniors next week getting him used to the school teachers etc so that takes up each day 830- 200 but il spend the time with little one ive got to get uniform for him so that be nice .
im going to really enjoy thye next 3 weeks off as i go to work 20 aug for the mornings cleaning il try to get afew trips sorted out for us not going away this year as i werent too sure what was happening and with the uniform to get didnt want to over stretch.
looking at doing a carboot sun the boys love that and dont even mind getting up early which is a bonus . just got one court date in sept and that is to do with the kids and that is it finished done
Sorry to hear your boy is poorly, hope he makes a quick recovery ready for summer camp and the youngest will enjoy having Mum all to himself.
Carboot eh? Fingers crossed for the weather and enjoy your weeks off.
Oh I want to do a carboot! sha 5, tell me, do you put stuff on a table or do you put it on the ground??
morning all glad to say my son is improving and i took him out yesterday while little one was at his friends to spend his birthday money so he was happy . i think as well with all what as gone on in our household just think his body said enough he is now only 11 and he as been interviewed by police , crown court cafcass plus trying to be himself and moving schools and sats think he is very tired too but im glad he is getting better .
hi anna i do both table and floor . if i do a inside carboot they normally provide the table if it is outside one then i take the paste board table and blankets and cover the area just hope the weather stays dry and il be out and at the boot for 6
Yes, fingers crossed. Do you ever get that thing where people (obviously dealers) swoop when you first arrive and try to get the best stuff?
Hi shaz 5, how did the car boot go??
hi i didnt do the carboot as it was raining here on sunday so waiting for the weather to stay dry then i shall be doing the boot then. yes louise as soon as i pull up they swarm the car and can be frightening .
the older one is at his school camp this week though he does come home each day he is tired lol had a bit of a upset monday the lender who was ready to take me on for the house pulled out so i had to get someone else and hopefully this is it now . my solic rang me today regarding everything and she is hoping that when we go to court in sept for the kids my ex we stick with what cafcass as reported and not want to go any furtheras it could mean alot for him to pay out and we all have to be interviewed and even bringing the kids to court which if that had to go ahead i would but it would make the kids feel even worse about him . well its raining here now quite heavy too not doing much as my son as camp going thursday with a friend to the pictures and something to eat so that will be nice
Hi Shaz that must have been scary, the lender pulling out, hopefully the new one is sorted now. It feels as if you are finally coming to the end of a long and bumpy road.
Yes the weather is not good but I trust your boy is enjoying camp anyway. And fingers crossed for the weather for your car boot!
morning all well i didnt do the car boot could kick myself as its dry but i shall be doing one next weekend with luck. son as done summer camp at the seniors and he loved it though he did come home each night shattered but he cant wait to start .
i now have 2 weeks before i have to go in for cleaning so i will be trying to do afew things with the kids . the car has had to go into the garage this week as it had a small leak so i had that done. went to the pictures thursday with a old school friend then for something to eat which was nice to catch up.
i have had a letter form my ex mother in law wanting to see us , in the letter she says that after xmas she was warned off from seeing us by the courts but im not sure on that one as i wasnt told of this . she also says that she as been texting my son so im thinking that my ex as not old her that the phone was sent back . i am thinking of trying another olive branch see what she has to say if she goes on about my ex then i shall stop her and then that will be it as im not into wanting to hear about him and his life as it was his choice . but for me i think it would be nice for the boys to have a nan in their lives and something of their fathers side . i know i may trying too much again after i have already been there but i can only but try then no one can say i didnt try . i have yet to pick up the phone to speak . my own mom as never tired again to get in touch, though she did send my son a cheque for his birthday my sister didnt. it is sad but i keep telling myself that i didnt cause this and it was others doing .
im hoping to finally hear about the house this week that it is all sorted and dusted.
i have missed going away this year and feel that i really could do with a break. i know i could go to my friends but just dont want to see them on the floor we will see . hope ever one is well
Yes, you have hardly had time for a holiday, Shaz. Maybe you could look at one of those caravan hols for a weekend?
Good luck with your ex mother-in-law, it would be nice for the boys to have a nan but she has to behave herself this time!
Hi shaz5, how about composing a letter back to your ex MiL, rather than speaking on the phone, stating what you would consider 'good' contact and how you would like it to go?
morning all well what a lovely week with the weather. i have managed to wash all the uniform and have ironed most of it and labelled it so thats good . went to the pics tues with the kids that was nice wed was palnning something but my dad came over dropped off loads of paint for me and had a cuppa and a chat then one of the moms came and they stayed 3hrs or more with us playing . tomorrow we are going to twin lakes with gingerbread even though i have not been since jan i still get asked to go on the trips so that we are looking forward too. i have booked for next week a day trip out with a coach firm to stourport on seven so lookig forward to that and if ok i shall book to go to the seaside for the week after , saves driving and getting too tired .
yesterday we went to meet with my ex mother in law , not much really i can say she tired to talk about my ex but im not really wanting to know . she said she is hurt by it and hardly sees him other than a text i cant say much to her about him. she told me that he had not planned a affair but was always going to leave a he didnt want to stay married so when i said ok i can deal with that then why lie and have affair if he was that unhappy why not just be upfront and tell the truth . she couldnt reply to me as she said she doesnt know why he could not have been truthful to me and it doesnt explain the affair . she wanted to see the boys to make sure they were being taken care of and looked well. i wasnt nasty but i said yes i feed them yes i do stuff with them as and when i can , we go swimming every friday night aqnd i have people who would tell you that i go . she said she thought that they would just being sat infront of tv all day and she would hate that. i was alittle hurt by this as im not a bad mom wouldnt say im the best but i try hard to do stuff with them and im there for when ever they need me and i have been there for them through all what we have been through .she said that the boys need their dad and that they need to see him and they should put aside what he as done and what he as seen that should be forgotten now and they should build up on what they have got left. i just said at teh end of the day it is the boys choice to what they want and i have and do say that he loves them i dont and wouldnt force or ram things about their dad to them that would be wrong if they ask i answer and i have left it open for them , me i think forcing their dad on them would be wrong . people forget what my son saw and that he heard his dads voice and he lied not only to me but to them too,
well she offered to buy the shoes for school for the kids so that was nice and saves me money but i did say that she didnt have too i had it covered but she wanted so i let her. she wasnt happy that i wouldnt give her my new moblie said that the house phone was enough and she could get us on that said i anted to be free and not have any contact only by home phone as i didnt want it to go to ex.whether i was wrong in this buit its how i feel and i dont mind her ringing the house .she still called me her daughter in law and she asked me not to change my name i know she is finding it hard to deal with but she cant except her son did this and yet i know that it is hard to come to terms as being a mom . parting words were be in touch like to see you all again in the furture and please dont find anybody new yet for awhile please which i found hard and strange but sleeping on it she cant come to terms what as happend and she has to like wise we have .
well looking like it will be carboot day sunday il be tired after sat im off food shopping when the kids wake and swimming later hope everyone is well x
evening all just got back as we went to friends for afew days . it was nice to get away but the weather was so bad . yesterday we went to the village as they had a market on and it was lovely then we had tea and cakes and watched the concert which was fab
before we went my ex has finally sent the kids letters. the younger one wanted me to read his out the other one nope nothing and when i was reading the letter out he slammed the door and hid . im not going to force him or make him reply either i have put them away into a box so when he is ready then he can do with them as he wants . in 3 weeks they have got to go and see cafcass how many times do they go and be interviewed ? will they try a visit out with their dad does anyone know?
the elder one is still so strong on not seeing him in the letter my ex put that he was very hurt and upset that he felt that he didnt want to see him and hoped that he would change his mind and that he should stop dwelling on the last year and start anew . this is hard as he is only 10 and he saw alot
well i hope everyone as had a nice bank holiday i have and needed the break so much and i have enjoyed watching the jubliee with the kids . last night my little one wanted so much to watch the beacon being lit he stayed awake just till the fireworks started then he fell asleep on my lap bless .
going to enjoy my week off now with the boys and catching up on jobs going for a meal tomorrow night with afew of the moms from my sons school so looking forward to that x