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sparklinglime
DoppleMe

Maybe do a new message to Anna and Louise - I'm sure they'll read this anyway - and they'll sort it.

I left my name here once - not that I mind those posting knowing, and it's a common name anyway, I'm just happier it not showing!

Posted on: August 7, 2009 - 11:41pm
Pansy

I cant find away of sending messages? Is it disabled maybe?

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 9:53am
Louise
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hi Paulasgems

yes they disabled the messaging facility to that members did not get unwanted approaches!

I can change your user name for you. I don't think you can change it for yourself. I an sending you an email to your home email address, reply to that telling me what new user name you want, I will be logging on again later and will change it for you.

I guess it is a reminder to us all about things being in the public domain and to use user names rather than real-life names...... :?

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 10:32am
Pansy

ok, thanks Louise. I may hang on a bit first. I'm trying to figure out if I'm actually bothered, it is not like I've lied or anything, but dont really want my every thought & what I am doing tracked, if of course it is being.

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 10:38am
Louise
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Ok well I will leave it up to you, I have sent you an email so the option is there ;)

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 10:40am
sadsy

Paulasgems,
how is the contact going? Is it finished yet?
Are you all OK? Did you get any agreements to help with the future?

Have your children seen you on One Space? The site name is all he and Scotish lady would need to keep them entertained in the evenings. :(

Oh sweetie, don't leave us! :cry:

love

sy

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 8:20pm
pinkgrapefruit

Hi Sy,

FIrstly I did the holes in the ceiling!! I had three to fill and I've managed them all with varying degrees of success. I have now painted my sons room and you can hardly tell the hole was ever there, the ones in the rooms that I haven't decorated are still more obvious of course but at least it means dust no longer comes down from them and its one job less to do when I get round to painting those rooms. I ended up shoving the polyfilla up with my hands cos the holes were quite big and it wouldn't stay there, then once I got enough in just smoothed it down with a handy little gadget I got from the DIY shop.

Definately want to follow your example and join a club - like the idea of some kind of combat - great way to take out my frustrations! Will keep my eyes open for a convenient class. Altho back at uni full time from middle of Sept so not sure how much free time I'll have then...

Introduced GB to son today. Was really nervous before he arrived. In the end we didn't go to the park as he had offered to try and fix my tv cos I haven't been able to get it to work since I moved here. Actually thats pretty much the best thing he could ever have done cos son a) loves tv and b) loves trying to fix things so the two of them just got along sorting that out. And I can now watch TV which is s bit of a bonus! After that we just sat in the garden with son playing. From my point of view it went really well and I'm trying not to race ahead and start worrying about what next, time will tell...

Hope your weekend is not too traumatic. I'm sure I probably need some of those anti-depressants, sometimes it really does feel like the end of the world, scared of going to the doctors tho and something going on my records that might later prevent me getting a teaching job...

Bec

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 9:24pm
sadsy

Oh Bec!
you are so fab! You've done your holes in ceiling. Big huuug for you!

Is your TV working OK? Hehe, bet GB was chuffed to help.

Sounds like a lovely gentle start to relationship.
If I get a relationship, can you help me?

The pillow relationship i have is bit undemanding really. Got pillow a new cover from IKEA. It didn't say much, bit like my ex.
Weathergirl I don't see anymore, telly not work too well. I say, "you have beautiful eyes!" and she say "cold northern front approaching from south east, expect scattered showers and blustery conditions". I don't need much for a relationship to keep me going. :lol:

Had 3 solicitors letters from Louise, which I have composed replies to. I don't have solicitor. Dropped one letter off at court tonight. Couldn't work out if it was an anti-terrorist letter box, or rainwater drain? I posted it there anyhow.

Not sure if they will have me back at badminton club. They get grumpy with me soon. I can walk upright today, quite pleased.

Yes, best be cautious on teaching requirements. It could be researched though? What would you like to teach?

Best drive home in a mo. I'm using mum's internet again - lol.

love
sy

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 9:51pm
Pansy

Do you know what, I popped on here quick just to see how you all are & am so glad I did!
:lol: :lol: :lol: Sy, you make my day & keep me going because you so make me laugh!!
thank you :D

I am ok, tell you more later.
Have been me, he has been him. have cried & been hugged & had answers, have given truths that have been accepted. Have not had my guard up at all, dont need to, I dont operate that way, I know that & so does he. Have shared truthful lovely moments & got my closure. He came good in the end, I knew he could. I cry :cry: as I write this because it is hard to say goodbye to someone you love, but now I'm ok because there are no lies, only the naked truth.
sorry if this sounds like a poem, I am a person who copes best in life by feeling my feelings.

I maybe make more sense tomorrow. He is going tomorrow eve. Post when hes gone.
Paula x

Posted on: August 8, 2009 - 10:53pm
Louise
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hello Pansy

I am so pleased that you have experienced the last few days as a positive time and maybe this will help you on your journey moving forward, tell us more when you get the chance :)

Hi Bec

I am really, really impressed with your DIY achievement! 8-) Good news re GB too, just take iot easy as you are doing. Glad you have got your TV fixed.

Hello sadsy

No reason why you shouldn't become a pivotal member of the badminton group! (as long as they don't discover your kidnapped Quorns ;) ) Pansy is right, you have a very witty way of writing and maybe this is a talent you can use in the future?

Sparkling lime

Hope your day will be Ok today, look after you :)

Take care all

Posted on: August 9, 2009 - 10:00am
Pansy

hello everyone ;) ;) ;)

hope ur all ok
Pansy

Posted on: August 9, 2009 - 7:45pm
sparklinglime
DoppleMe

So glad you feel it went well.

Been thinking of you loads.

Posted on: August 9, 2009 - 10:19pm
Pansy

well today is another day, as they say.
I feel like I have been run over by a bus! very fragile!
I am going to have to just take it easy today, I hope the kids will let me & not start moaning their bored!
I really do feel like I did the day he walked out, maybe not as bad, but bad enough. After today I am going to have to keep my self & kids busy!
Hope Sy is ok! I am missing him.
Pansy.

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 11:26am
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hi Pansy

It was great to read your post, it sounds as if you really have cleared the air. I am not surprised that you feel like you have been run over by a bus, as it must have been so emotional. But give yourself a big pat on the back, for being honest with yourself and coming to a conclusion.

Today is YOUR day, put your feet up, read, eat popcorn and watch an afternoon film. Do whatever you want to do, if the girls demand anything from you, ask them to join you otherwise they must find their own activities. Only cook if you feel like it and only eat what YOU want! Its your summer holiday too and you really need some TLC.

Take care of you.

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 12:02pm
sadsy

Hey there Pansy,
you soooo deserve a treat. I have a new thing, I'm abandoning hugs now. See sign off for my new repetoire.

I went to Fenwicks to get Arwen a birthday present for this weekend coming yesterday. I spent £60 on a playmobil circus tent and animals. And pink purse on sale in Animal for £3. I'm going to print a picture of me and her and put it in the window compartment. You know, I sat with a pot of tea and a fresh berry cheescake for breakfast in the conservatory area in Fenwicks and I realised I had never done that for me before. All I needed was a laptop I would be away!

Of course, tonight she say she wants a scooter, sigh. Tooo late now Arwen, madame, you already got one anyhow.

Pansy, how are you going to get through a monthly repeating separation trauma? It sounds excruciatingly painful. Not as painful as seeing beloved partner snuggling up with ugly stranger with your kids in back of his car. Sniff.

Been a bit down today. Feel like I'm in row boat on approach to victoria falls. Soon, the financial abyss.

Been trying to get mum's 2nd new phone working tonight. I hate Windows! Get an iphone mum! Gaaawd she has telly so loud! No internet for another week at least. Work tomorrow. No job hunting today. I'm so rubbish. Been sitting a long time today. Will ask counsellor what's happening to me tomorrow night.

Biiiig sluuuurpy kiiiss!*

sy

*not sure about this kiss thing now. What do I do about guys?

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 9:25pm
Pansy

Sy,
are you seeing Arwen at the weekend for her birthday, I hope you get to see her.
Yes it will be hard each month, maybe I will go away somewhere, dont know where yet.

I like the kissing bit :lol: not sure the guys will though :o :lol:
Is your Mum ok with you keep popping in to use her internet?

Please try not worry about all the finance stuff, easy for me to say I know, but before you know it, it will be done & dusted & I'm sure you will have a bright future ahead of you because you deserve it.

Pansy x

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 9:40pm
sadsy

Sparkling,
hope you are OK.

Not forgotten you. Miss you.
I got to go drive home now. 45mins.

Kiss on the forehead.

Sy

*am trying out different types of kisses as experiment, instead of hugs.

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 9:48pm
sadsy

Pansy,
don't go away each visit.
You've done nothing wrong.

Give yourself a big huug, it's been so tough for you.

I couldn't have done what you have done this week. Not many could.
Well done you. We must find a way of making it easier for you each contact without leaving your home.

night night, I must drive.

peck on the cheek

sy

Posted on: August 10, 2009 - 10:00pm
Louise
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hello sadsy

Good luck with all your various projects. I thought you were doing man-hugs, with gruff coughing accompaniment, for the guys?

Hi Pansy

How are you today? yes I think you need to think about how you will manage these visits if they are going to occur regularly, otherwise you could risk just making a reasonable recovery and it all starts up again :( My own feeling is that it will be difficult for him to keep up this visiting pattern month after month...so maybe the pattern might not be as bad for you as we fear. However, THEN you have the other problem of how the kids are with that. DURRRR! Probably best not to worry to much about it in advance and just take each development as it comes. In the meantime be kind to yourself and also congratulate yourself on how wonderfully you have done over the last few weeks

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 10:49am
sadsy

ye,
Pansy is cool, she done so well.

What, what's that? I can hear something...yes, goodness yes, it's....

a choir of angels singing "Pansy is cool" with fluttering cherubs joining in on the chorus,


Quote:
Paaaaaansy, isssss suuuuuuch a sweeeeeetie, aaaaahhaaaaahaaaa, ooooohoooooohooo, aaaaaalll praaaaaaaise heeeeer, hic, ooooooeeeeeeooooo. Amen.



Pesky cherobs, gerroff out of it! Hey! Gimme back my M&S freshly baked cookie! It's made off with it. Soon settle this...got my badminton racquet in my bag. Swaaat! Swiiiish! Smaaaack! Swooosh! Got him, the blighter!

Oh nooo, they angry now.

One has a bow and arrow, Oh lord save me, ruuuun! Aaaaargh, he got me. Straight through my notepad with bic pen attachment. Feeel my life draining away. Through my chest he got me, and he's laughing. Evil cherub. Yuk, this floor needs a clean under my desk. Cut backs. Feel kinda strange. Bit woozy. Mum can have the Espace when I die...and yes, it was me that made that smell in John Lewis habberdashery lift in 1997.

Oh. I'm not dead. Arrow dissolved in pink and red puff of swirly boudoir smoke. Feeeeel weeeeeeird.

Quote:
"Pansy, Pansy, I need to pick you some flowers...."

Feeling weird.
Blown garlic kiss (avoid if poss).

Sy

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 11:30am
Pansy

oooooooookkkkk :roll:
are you feeling ok?
have you maybe had one to many tablets?
bored to insanity at work?
in love with the lady who takes you to find the cat food? or other at work?

Whatever it is I WANT SOME!

:lol:

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 12:52pm
sadsy

Hellooo Pansy,
nooo, cat food lady older German-Irish Catholic and has two evil daughters at moment.
"You're so embarrassing mum!" They 16 and 15. And spoilt. She amazing person, but not for me.

I've come to mum's, as my face closing up (like been punched) boss tell me to go home lunchtime for negativity. sigh.
She give me relaxation CDs to listen to.

No, there's none I fancy at work.

Watched the Street last night and thought of you Pansy. Never seen it before. It had an alcoholic element and was very real.

The cherub that got me was cupid. He's troublemaker.

Very sunny here today, hope sun shining on you.

Teasing kiss on cheek (think a kiss is coming, very close till tickles, then pull away)

sy

(what sort of kiss should I give anna. Big slobbery drunken one? hehe)

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 1:57pm
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Ahem, no I don't think so, thank you very much sadsy!!

Cupid seems to be playing tricks on you, going around kissing all the girls! You better be careful! did you hear about that English chap in Greece?

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 2:22pm
sadsy

Anna,
noo, did not hear about English chap in Greece,
did he live a happy and fulfilled life rescuing and raising baby dolphins?
Lived happily ever after? Was mostly happy, apart from stubbing toe on underwater doric column?

OK tell me, I know it's bad.

Polite peck on the cheek.

Sy

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 2:26pm
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

He flashed a Greek woman and groped her, she threw Sambucca at his bits (!) and set fire to them!!

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 2:29pm
Pansy

whats up with your face Sy? is it better now?
maybe you are allergic to the cherubs!

yes sun is out here in Dorset today. Done housing form, phoned up about money, went to the gym :o
managed 50mins workout, gonna take more than that though :lol:
I HATE the rowing machine! but like the rest, so that ok.

Didn't go for make over but did buy nice plum hair colour, few to many grey hairs! :o

thanks for making me laugh so much Sy! :D

Big sweaty kiss for you (sorry just got back from gym)
pansy x

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 6:19pm
Pansy

oh Sy you'd better be careful,
dont get to fresh with the girls.
Anna will come after you with her Sambucca :o

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 6:24pm
Pansy

watching Notting Hill, got Hugh Grant in it :D

Posted on: August 11, 2009 - 9:33pm
sadsy

Oh I love that movie! Pansy
Pansy it's stress, making my face crumple counsellor said. It will go soon.

Anna
I AM NOT SETTING LIGHT TO MY PRIVATE PARTS!
No way. There's nothing in the terms and conditions of One Space that requires members to BBQ valuable, cherished and much loved (though seldom used) parts of their anatomy.

ooh have to start work now.

Catch up lunchtime.

reverse kiss (rasperry) raaaaassssp!

sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 9:00am
Pansy

I really enjoyed film, I hadn't seen it before! well, I think I'd seen bits of it, which is what usually happens when I'm watching films! Hugh Grant not seem so appealing anymore for some reason.

need to watch some more films like that I think, found myself dreaming of being in love :o made me feel much better.
Is it normal to get like this? I blame Sy with his cupids!, it's become catching :?

Pansy x

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 9:18am
sadsy

What about Brigitte Jones' diary?

sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 9:34am
sadsy

Hello Sparkling,
are you OK, I saw a fail type thing. What did you take? Did you get any useful feedback on what to do next time?

Oh goodness, I know it's hard, putting work in and not getting the reward.

Would you like a nice cup of tea? Yes?
Good, then can you make one for me whilst your about it! hehe

love
sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 9:36am
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Sadsy I thought you were going to go back to work and then pop in at lunchtime!!

The Greek woman set fire to the English guys bits, he didn't do it to himself! :? That would be a bit odd!

Pansy, you don't have to do the rowing machine if you hate it. When I used to go to the gym, I used to do an hour and hated it. It always felt like such a chore, but then one of the super fit, young, gorgeous women that worked there said why not do 40 mins instead. I did and found that I enjoyed it SO much more!

I used to have a thing for Hugh Grant too, but now I find him immensely annoying! I want to look out for the Enchanted Cottage a b&w film that Louise was talking about. It sounds very romantic. :roll:

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 10:11am
sadsy

Pansy,
yes, wanting to fall in love again I am going through that too. It goes on for ages. Now I've got this longing to be kissed thing now AS WELL AS, wanting to be in love and loved. As you are a lady, it's OK to have a big teddy and hug that at bedtime. Guys have to make do with pillows. If kissing teddy, make sure fluff not come off first, or you might get fuzzy mustache from polyester flock.

It's very annoying and distracting this wanting to be in love.

All tell me I'm not ready on here. I not want to be single forever!

My face is better today thanks. Bit stressed over badminton. Was very tough last week, stretched my lungs and tasted blood, yuk. I get tutted all evening.

Where is Sparklinglime?

I wandered street last night to see if I could piggyback broadband connection, but everyone has passwords now.

Well done you for going and exercising. Swimming is more fun than gym? All good for you. When home, look in mirror and see how fab you look! Then, next you'll be throwing away clothes that are too big. Then choosing new ones for the new you.

kiss on the nose

sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 10:43am
Pansy

sadsy wrote:
What about Brigitte Jones' diary?

sy

seen it, could watch it again though.

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 12:23pm
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Have you seen Moonstruck Pansy? When the moon hits the sky, like a big pizza pie, thats amore??!!

That is dead romantic I think!

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 12:33pm
Pansy

Anna,
may not bother with rowing machine again, it hurts my back.
Enchanted cottage sounds good.

Sy,
I dont think I'll kiss teddy, rather hug pillow & dream about it, seeing as dreaming about it is as close as I am going to get.
And watching films. feeling bit down again now, really need to shake myself out of this!

shame you couldn't get onto someones broadband connection Sy. Have you got badminton tonight again?
At least you are getting out instead of day dreaming. That is good, realality check ;)

Pansy x

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 12:38pm
Pansy

Moonstruck, no I have not seen it. Will have to find that one too.
thanks Anna.

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 12:40pm
Pansy

Today is turning into bad day. Daughter has managed to have me in tears agin!

I am not up to handeling all this on my own, am feeling really angry he walked out & left me with all this! It takes two of us to cope with her & I am getting no rest from her & neither are the other two that she also makes miserable. I may have to consider her going up & staying with him after all, because If I dont I am never going to have a life, I will be to worn down to function at all. I want her to stay here & get some help, but to be honest she needs removing from everyone if she is to stand a chance of changing herself. This is serious stuff, you wouldn't believe what it is like living with a child with ODD & to have two others with Aspergers & anxiety!! well you can imagine, she does not help them at all.

He left, so I think maybe he needs to have her live with him, bang goes his new relationship then! He would probably send her back after a week!

I need to do some serious thinking here.
pansy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 1:26pm
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hey Pansy, don't have a bad day. :)

I have just come across the following site:

http://www.aspergernauts.co.uk/links.php and wondering if there are any links there that can be of any use/support to you? It must be very touch dealing with it all on your own now, I would be surprised if your ex lasted a day let alone a week! Or this one? http://www.oaasis.co.uk/Links I am sure you have trawled the net yourself on all of this, but maybe you might find something new with these?

Ok change of plan, I have just been speaking to a lovely woman from http://www.addiss.co.uk/ who has given me some fascinating information on ADHD and ODD, their helpline is 020 8952 2800 Mon-Fri 10-3pm. I got through straight away. PS. Man on website is very tasty, maybe he could be your new love interest!! Tee hee!

Perhaps you could give her a ring and have a chat as I felt she was very informative. Do let me know if you do call!

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 2:01pm
sadsy

Pansy,
steady, you can make it through the day. If they all together giving you grief - divide and conquer - send eldest off to her friend's for a sleep over. Next eldest could, er, play with your makeup? Next eldest could be movie DVD?

Struggling now.

You will have down days, when lots comes at you from all angles. Tomorrow the sun will find and shine on you.
Just make it to the end of the day. You are much loved.

sigh.

A short stint with dad will not work as children be on best behaviour with him for at least 3-4 days. Also they would be unsure of Scottish lady and on unfamiliar territory. They they would be good.

Mum's always get the worst of it. It's a compliment, children trust that they can be bad and they know you still love them.

Will check on you later. Mum has another new phone to try so can connect up at 6ish. hehe

Long lingering kiss on the forehead. (this is my last week kissing on sign-off, so make the most of it).

sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 2:38pm
Pansy

Thanks Anna, bless you, did you do all that for me. you are all so wonderful here, big hug.

sorry I had a bad moment on here. I dont like moaning about her. :( It's very hard not to though.

I'm ok with the Asperger thing, have done alot of the 'help' workshops that the Austistic society run, & know alot about it & how to handel it, my eldest daughter with it, has in many ways grown out of many of the traits, she learnt to deal with them, but still suffers with the high anxiety level that anyone with Aspergers lives with. She gets depressed & very anxious. Son's Aspergers is more obvious though.

My biggest problem is my 13 yr old who they think has ODD, ODD is very differnt to ADHD & is meant to be much worst to live with, I read on one site, so the fact that we have been putting up with what we have for years is pretty amazing, but clearly it hasn't been without it's consequences!!

What is difficult is that she happens to be the worst thing anyone with Aspergers should have to deal with! so you see the problem. Just recently though she has been saying sorry like she means it! Believe me that is a huge thing, as ODD often feels no guilt! & after totally destroying everything & everyone around them, they just walk in the room as if nothing has happened! It is said that they grow out of ODD in most cases but a percentage go on to have personality disorders in adult life.

If I ever got a new man in my life I would probably loose him because I couldn't expect anyone to put up with it, & really the other two shouldn't have to. That is why I was wondering if it would be better for all if she lived with her Dad.

Thank you for the phone number I will call them & find out id there are any ODD help groups. There always seems to be plenty for ASD, ADD & ADHD but not ODD.
Pansy x

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 2:49pm
Anna
Parenting specialist DoppleMe

Hi Pansy, good luck with the phone call.

The woman was telling me that if ADHD goes untreated in childhood then it tends to lead to ODD. She also told me about how children tend to inherit it from one or both of their parents. This then got me thinking about your partner and his drinking and depression and it made me wonder........

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 2:54pm
Pansy

Sy,
please dont stop kissing on sign off!
OMG what are you planning next :o :oops:

:lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol: :lol:

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 2:54pm
Pansy

funny you should say that Anna. Ex was a bit of a handful as child & he does actually understand her better than me!

Dr told me it is very common to have all children on the ASD spectrum. All these types of things come on the spectrum & children can have different things or even parts of things. My Dad we think is the culprit, he MUST have Aspergers, it is so obvious to us now we know lots about it & his brothers children also had Aspergers! BUT Ex also has deprssion like you say & has had from teenager! & like I say he went off rails as a child/ teenager. So there are plenty of link.

Note: I do not include myself in any of that :lol: I can honestly say I'm ok. If I wasn't I'd never have survived & we would all be a disfunctional family, I can see how it happens! (sorry bad spelling mistakes!)

I will phone tomorrow now as have to pop out & also do more cleaning :shock:

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 3:04pm
Pansy

Need to make sure I'm back at 6ish, dont want to miss out on last of the kisses :lol:

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 3:09pm
sadsy

we got till the end of the week, as I still have lots of different types of kiss to try. Need to find one for bourne, lol

Then I'm going formal for a week.
Everyone breathes sigh of relief.

sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 3:57pm
Pansy

Sparkling where are you?

hope you ok, as you havn't posted for a while.

You need to hurry up otherwise you may not be in time for Sy's kiss!
Pansy x

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 6:09pm
sadsy

Sparkling not on for 3 days.

Was it that test fail?

I'm never there for people when they need help.
Can Louise or Anna send her an email note?

Sy

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 6:30pm
Pansy

Poor sparkling was very down about it :cry: hope she ok.
she needs kiss Sy!

Posted on: August 12, 2009 - 6:37pm